September 7th, 2003

Peacock

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i had the weirdest experience today. First of all, let me preface with the tidbit that i had my one year appt. on the 21st of Aug...175 lost so far and still losing. Anyway, mom and i spent the day in tyler, then when we got back home this evening we dropped a couple of bags of clothes we've shrunk out of off at goodwill. We've given clothes before...like 5 or 6 bags worth...so this is no big deal, right? Well, when i saw the guy toss the bags on to the truck, i was so sad and felt like i needed to cry. It was like saying goodbye forever to a part of my life that will never return. The dress i wore the first few days after my first tattoo was in there (pants irritated it and i had to wear a dress), the pants i wore all through grad school and my first year of teaching *and* my time in toronto were in there, the shirts i used to wear when i was married were in there. It amazes me how all those things flashed through my mind as i watched those bags go. i still feel a little sad by it.

i swear to start writing more often...i promise.
Peacock

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Today was a *gorgeous* day....we had the house open almost all day and sat on the front porch for most of the morning. i had missed taking naps in the afternoon with the breeze blowing through the open windows, but i got to do that today. i'm looking forward to more days like today.

i've played hooky from work the last few days...Thurs through part of tonight. i have to clock in in half an hour, though. i just needed the time off. i'm planning on taking some days off when mom's on her fall break so that we can hang together...then i'll have a few days off to fly to ND for brian's wedding. After that, i'm going to try to not miss anything until Christmastime. i'd like to take my week's vaca then, then also take a week off with attendance points. i should be able to swing it.

i'm reading Pride and Prejudice, because i've never read it and adore the movie. i'll do Sense and Sensibility next probably. i also made a goal yesterday to have my first novel finished 2 years from then. If all goes well and i do what i want, i should have it done far before then. i'm always looking to give myself some leeway though.

i need to get my bed made before work. i hate working overnights. i'm thinking i might ask for a schedule change. We'll see.

i miss being with someone. i keep waiting for Mr Right to come along. i signed up on a couple of matchmaker websites with only one response to any of my ads. i'm in the middle of the sign up for another now. i keep hoping to find someone to share things with. i miss having someone.